in my life,part 8...

i lost my soulmate fifteen years ago,Christmas Day... people have said to me that,"you should get over it"... losing someone anytime is very,very tough,and you never "get over it"... even though,i smile every Christmas Day,i really have my silent moments of pain every Christmas,usually in the morning,before i get up,or Christmas Eve,when i look at the moon,because i truly remember looking at the moon,getting out of the Christmas Mass,and wanting to walk two miles,over to the hospital,and saying,"Merry Christmas",to my soulmate,and yet,after five plus hours of standing in Mass,my legs were so sore that i almost did not make the six blocks to my studio apartment,that night... to those people,who think losing someone you dearly love is not tough,and that you can "just get over it",simply try it... it honestly gets better to the point that you can go on,but the pain never,ever subsides,one bit... to my family,i say that i dearly love you all... always have,always will!!!!!!!!